A journal entry from March 20, 2017 from Ellie’s mom. Just shy of 3 months after Ellie passed away.
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I think one of my greatest fears is the feeling that I have moved on from Elizabeth and somehow me being happy makes me feel like I don't love her anymore. That's how my heart feels and part of my mind, but I also know better. Somewhere along my journey as a Christian I got the idea that instead of asking WHY, we should ask God what good can come from this? Now don't get me wrong my heart is broken more than I could ever express, but I got this overwhelming feeling of confidence that one day I will know without a shadow of a doubt what good has come from this. I also believe that it will not be just one thing, but I do believe that there will be a moment, and so I wait with hope for that moment.
2.29.24
Now, years after Ellie’s passing, I am thankful for the Hope that God gave me that good would come from Ellie’s journey. I can get so caught up in the day to day of leading our organization, that I can truly sometimes forget All the good that has come from Ellie’s life.
As we close out this Thursday, I am filled with gratitude. Not that I have to live life without Ellie beside me, but that she is fully healed and living her best life in Heaven. And that good has come from the heartache and pain our family endured.
